Sunday, July 3, 2011

Para Kang

Ikaw 'yung sale na hindi ko naabutan
'Yung numerong hindi ko natayaan
'Yung bus na hindi ko natyempuhan
'Yung sagot na hindi ko nahulaan

Ikaw 'yung sugal na hindi ko naipanalo
'Yung karanasang 'di ko natamo
'Yung gitarang 'di ko naitono
'Yung pangungusap na 'di ko nakumpleto

Ikaw 'yung palabas na 'di ko natapos
'Yung tinodo kong free throw pero kapos
'Yung panghimagas na 'di ko naubos
'Yung bakasyong 'di ko nalubos

Ikaw 'yung salitang hindi ko naintindihan
'Yung tanawing hindi ko nasilayan
'Yung bukas na lagi lang inaabangan
'Yung pag-ibig na hindi ko napigilan.

At kahit naiiwan,
Nalalampasan,
Nalilimutan,
Ikaw pa rin 'yung pag-ibig na hindi ko napigilan.

Hanggang sa maubos.

The Summer I Fell

He's the love story that I don't want to share with other people, but I always ended up doing so, because he's the only love story I got. Then again, even if I did, I only discussed it with my real friends for I know that others won't understand.

How will you fall for someone whom you had only seen thrice? And nothing really happened in those three meetings--no exchanging I love you's, no kissing and/or hugging, no introducing ourselves to each other. Just him, looking at me, and me, looking at him. But still, those fancy moments led me to this kind of feeling, which I have been keeping for more than a year now.

Yes, more than a year. Same span of time since the last time I saw him. And I have no clue if our paths will ever cross again. I found out that he's currently out of the country. I don't even know where. In US maybe, where snowstorm happens or in Saudi Arabia, where sandstorm strikes. But wherever he is, I just pray that he's safe. All the time.

There are instances when I just find myself thinking of him while listening to a song in my playlist. And it happens everyday. May it be a love song, which reminds me of the time when our eyes first met or a sad one, which makes me realize that the person I'm loving doesn't even know me. Maybe he does know I exist, but he would have already forgotten me. Too bad that I was the only one who got hit by Cupid's arrow when he was just playing then. For him it's unintentional, but whose fault was it if I took it seriously?

I admit that I'm still holding on to the time when we're going to see each other again. I really look forward to seeing his face for the fourth, and hopefully, not the last time. I'm no longer hoping for a love story. Another chance to lay eyes on him is already enough. Even if it's only about me, looking at him, and him, wondering why I'm doing so.

I know that there will always be someone out there for me, that I'm not going through this alone. But this man will always be my personal epitome of a first love. Although it's not meant to be.



You're still my favorite wish.

Ilaw

Nagpagising ako ng a las cinco
4:46 pa lang, pinababangon mo na ako
Ma, alam mo bang mag-ki-kiss na dapat kami ni Prince Charming?
Kaya lang bigla mo naman akong ginising

Minsan, ginabi ako ng pag-uwi
Nadatnan kitang humihikbi
Akala ko naman kung ano 'yung iniiyakan
'Nay, palabas lang sa TV 'yan!

Ang sakit ng katawan ko
Lalagnatin 'ata ako
'Di makatulog si mommy
Pabalik-balik, 'di mapakali

Tuwing Pasko,
Bago lahat ang gamit ko
Si ermat, 'di binili 'yung bag na gusto niya
Okay na raw siyang makita akong masaya

'Di ko nga alam kung bakit sobrang mahal mo ako
Kung tutuusin, isa lamang akong estranghero
Nakuha mo pa akong kupkupin sa iyong sinapupunan
At nang mailuwal, pinakain pa't binihisan

Kaya 'di ko man madalas na sinasabi
Kinukunsumi man kita parati
Alam mong mahal na mahal kita
Ikaw ang inang hiniling ko sa Kanya


--Isang pagpupugay sa mga Pilipinong nanay.


Habang ako'y karga mo.

Alkansya

Mag-iipon na talaga ako ng maraming pera
Para sa susunod na makita kitang may kasamang iba,
May pang-basketball na ako sa Timezone
Pang-order ng pizza kapag home alone
Pambili ng DVD na sobrang iiyakan ko
Higit pa sa nangyari no'ng nakita ko kayo

Lahat ng barya
Ilalagay ko sa alkansya
Baka sakaling makabili ng bagong damit at pantalon
Nag-se-sale pa naman tuwing matatapos ang taon
Kailangan ko na rin ng bagong relo
Sa iba na dapat nakalaan ang buong oras ko

Gusto ko rin ng bagong bag at sapatos
Dahil ang gamit ko ay noong 2009 pa nalaos
Maganda rin sigurong bumili ng cellphone na touchscreen
'Yung tipong ang message alert tone ay hindi bitin
Bumili rin kaya ako ng digital camera?
Sayang naman kasi ang matatamis na alaala

Pero sa liit ng aking sweldo
Sakto lang sa pamasahe at pagkain ko
Bakit pa ako mag-e-effort na kalimutan ka
Sa dami ng gastusin, makalilimutan talaga kita
At kung sakali mang makasalubong kita ulit
Wala namang bayad ang pagtungo
pati na ang pagpikit


--Isang pagsaludo sa mga manggagawang Pilipino.

Tulad nito, naghihingalo na rin ako.

Si Crush at ang Pinapangarap Kong Love Story

Tuwing nakikita kita
Ngiti ko'y hanggang outerspace
Naghahalo ang kilig at tuwa
Parang nakakain ng pickles sa mayonnaise

Naiilang ako sa'yo
Tulad ng pagkailang ko sa bangs ni Superman
Sa tuwing magkakasalubong tayo
Parang gusto kong magtata-tumbling sa daan

Sa boses mo pa lang
Kumpleto na ang araw ko
Ipakukulam ko ang hahadlang
Kung sakali mang maging tayo

Ikaw ang gusto kong gift sa Labor Day
Walang pakialamanan ng trip
Gusto ko kasi ngayong May
Habang nag-aabang ako ng jeep

Hindi ma-ke-carry ng taumbayan
Kung gaano kita kagusto
Pag-ibig ko'y 'di mababawasan
Memorized mo man ang songs ni Sarah Geronimo

Kung dumating man ang araw na magtatapat ka sa akin
Naghihintay lang naman ako
I-we-welcome ka ni Tagpi sa bahay namin
Ang haba ng hair ko, hanggang impyerno

Handa kitang pakasalan
Piliin mo mang venue ay Jolo
Dahil kahit saan naman
Mapapa-oo mo pa rin ako

Makatulog na nga, malalim na ang gabi
Bukas na lang ulit
Pinupuyat mo na lang ako parati
Pero ayos lang, sulit na sulit.


Crush, pakasal na tayo.♥

Himpilan

Hindi na kita iniisip
'Di gaya dati
Kahit sa panaginip
Sumisingit ka parati

Hindi na kita hinahanap
'Di tulad noon
Iba man ang kaharap
Tinatanaw ka pa rin doon

Hindi na kita ipinagdarasal
'Di gaya noong isang linggo
Nainip na marahil sa sobrang tagal
'Di rin naman ikaw ang makakasama ko

Hindi na kita iniiyakan
'Di gaya kahapon
Nakailang baliktad ako ng unan
Para sa isa pang pagkakataon

Hindi na kita hinihintay
'Di gaya noong isang araw
Hindi pa kasi ako sanay
Kaya tinitigan ka nang panakaw

May mahal na kasi akong iba
Hindi ko pa pala nasasabi sa'yo
Pero ng makasalubong kita sa istasyon kanina
Pati 'yung tren,
Iniwan ako.



Inaabangan ka pa rin.

Hindi Lahat May Part II

May mga bagay raw talaga na makita mo lang, masaya ka na.
Parang 'yung palabas sa TV kanina
May magagawa ka pa ba kung tapos na?
Napipilitan ka tuloy maghanap ng iba.

Pero wala,
Naghahanap ka nga,
Bumabalik at bumabalik ka pa rin naman sa kanya.
Siguro kasi, doon ka masaya.

Sumusubaybay, naghihintay, 'di ka nagsasawa.
May pagngiti, pagkatakot, at pagpatak ng mga luha.
Nagbibigay kasi siya ng dahilan para mag-abang ka.
Tapos hayun, matatapos lang din naman pala.

Marami ka na nga sigurong napanood na palabas.
Sinubaybayan mo mula umpisa hanggang wakas.
At mayroong isa sa kanila na gustohin mo mang panoorin ngayon,
'Di mo na maibabalik kasi hanggang doon na lang talaga 'yon.


Alam kong napadaan ka lang.

Another Version of the So-called Happily Ever After

Ideas usually strike at 4 PM. Just like now. Or maybe I'm just in love. Just maybe.
Sad songs are playing in the background at this very moment. All because I let them. They help me become sadder, and I'm beginning to like it.

Okay, maybe those 5 lines are already enough for an introduction. Let me go directly to the point.
I liked someone whom I'd only seen 3 times. I used to wait for him at my cousin's stall, hoping he'd pass by again.Weekends were my only spare time and I didn't mind staying there just to catch a glimpse of him. But serendipity was at work then. It's either I already left and he'll be there, like, 5 minutes later or he has already gone there and I'll be arriving 15 minutes late.
I even got satisfied with what my cousin and my mom shared with me. "I saw him yesterday wearing a white shirt and a cap, blah blah blah blah..." "You should have been there, Charlie. I think he's not in a good mood because he was frowning, dah dah dah dah..." And even if they have already relayed all the information to me, I still asked them about it. I kept on reiterating the thoughts on my mind. Come on, Charlie! It's just about him, going to the store near your cousin's stall, wearing that shirt or whatsoever. Nothing more, nothing less. What's so interesting about it? I didn't even see him myself and yet my smile already reached the dimension of the unknown.
Being the stalker that I am, I found out that he studied in an international school. His family even owns a school somewhere in Las Piñas, I think. He has a silver Vios which made him look like Edward Cullen in my eyes. I don't like Robert Pattinson that much though, but if he's going to court me, CAN I say no??? Yes, the operative term is "can" in all caps.
Those are the only information I got. Just when I thought I was the ultimate stalker of all time, he was there to prove me wrong.
I want to check on his Facebook account, just for me to know if he's still single or what, but then I don't know what his name is. And there's no way for me to find out. We don't have mutual friends, he rarely goes out by foot, and our neighbors don't know him (and his family), too. I'm starting to believe that they are a family of vampires.
Yeah! I can create a story out of it! But never will it be a love story. Because five, six, seven months have passed, not even his shadow did I see. Then I realized that serendipity was never really at work then. My imagination was.
Suddenly, I got tired. It seemed like everything has flashed into my very eyes and I started to see what I have missed before, especially what my mom has said, "He has a car, is good-looking, and rich. Do you think he doesn't have a girlfriend yet?" Let me look at the ceiling and think how stupid it was of me not to realize it then.
Then there came this guy. I didn't like him at first because he seemed to be overrated. (I swear you won't find even a single clue from here about who he is!)
I started to feel like he's making some efforts for me. I won't say how as there are people who might easily identify him (will even look at me from head to toe). The thought of him being around always sends chills down my spine. We barely know each other, I don't even know if he knows my name, but there's really something in the way he looks at me. Deep down inside, I wanted to feel it. But what am I gonna do with those fiddling moments? Am I supposed to hold on to a mere stare? Everything he does makes me fall even if I do not know if the feeling is mutual at all. Yes, we can assume that my imagination is just at work again.

Well, let me summarize this one for you.

He stares. She looks.
He likes her. She doesn't know how much.
He thinks she's insensitive. She's afraid she might be overthinking things.
He wants to give up. She is looking forward to a happily ever after with him.


Nevertheless, Merry Christmas!♥




Here beside you is where my love story starts.

Kung Sino Man

Hanggang ngayon 'di pa rin kita kilala
May anim na buwan na yata kitang hindi nakikita
Nakalimutan ko na nga ang hitsura mo
Pero hindi ko alam kung bakit ikaw pa rin ang gusto ko

Lumiko sa kanan para may makitang iba
Bumalik sa sulok kung saan wala ka
Yaman din lamang na nasasayang ang oras ko
Sasayangin ko na lang sa paghihintay sa'yo

Kahit pa sabihing wala naman akong pinanghahawakan
Na para lang akong nakikipagbunong-braso sa buwan
Kahit pa libutin ko ang kalawakan para lang makita ka
Basta ba pagbalik ko rito, kasama na kita

Ayokong isugal ang hindi ko naman pwedeng itaya
Pero ba't ba ako natatakot kung wala namang mawawala
Kuntento na akong ipinipinta ang mukha mo sa alapaap
Mukha mong ni sa panaginip ay hindi ko mahagilap

Ipinaglalapat mo rin kaya ang dalawang kamay mo?
Ipinipikit ang mga mata habang binubulong ang pangalan ko?
Kahit naman hindi pa ngayon, walang dahilan para magmadali
Sa'yo ko lang naman gustong ituon ang aking bawat sandali

Nahintay nga kita ng dalawampu't isang taon
Kaya mahihintay pa rin kita, kahit doblehin mo pa 'yon.
Pero kung hindi man tayo ang para sa isa't isa
Mas nauna naman kitang minahal kaysa sa kanya...

Hindi ka bibitawan.

Idlip

For Daddy Tommy.
In pace requiescat.

Hindi ko hahanapan ng dahilan
Ang biglaan mong paglisan
Hindi rin ako magdaramdam
Kung umalis ka nang walang paalam

Pero huwag mong hilinging ako'y tumigil sa pag-iyak
Dahil gustohin ko man, kusa silang pumapatak
Paano kung sa panaginip, ika'y magpakita sa akin
Pagdilat ng mga mata, saan naman kita hahanapin?

Dadaan ang pasko, maging ang bagong taon
Pero kailanma'y hindi na magiging katulad noon
Pipilitin na lang naming maging masaya
Sa mga pagdiriwang na hindi ka na namin kasama

Hinahaplos ako ng pighati at niyayakap ng lungkot
Lagi ka sa aking puso, hindi ako makalilimot
Hahalikan at yayakapin kita sa aking panaginip
Gawin mo rin sana ang mga ito habang ako'y naiidlip...


Kahit sa panaginip lang.

No Second Chance

I want to fly to the moon
I want to swim the deepest sea
If only I could see you soon
If only you could be with me

Your smile--the one that controls my Earth
It seems like I have known you since birth
The gushing wind that whistles and blows your hair
Makes me look at no one else but you, I swear

So when we are together
You know just what to do
I always feel better
Whenever I'm with you

Every minute that you are out of sight
I get a little bit crazy
You are my last thought every night
You're the one I want to marry

So if with me you feel like staying
I'm giving you until forever then
Because this kind of love, this type of feeling
It might just never happen again...


Once in a blue moon, you came into my life.